Living With AuDHD: When Autism and ADHD Come Together

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The Art of Living in Between

21 February – written by Katrin Kemmerzehl – Blog

You might have lived for a long time with the sense that you experience the world a little differently.

Perhaps you are deeply reflective yet easily overwhelmed. You may crave clarity and structure, while also struggling to stick to routines that feel imposed or restrictive. 

You might feel emotionally and intellectually engaged, yet exhausted by everyday demands that others seem to manage without much effort.

If this resonates, you are not alone. For many people, this recognition comes with a mix of relief and uncertainty. There may be a sense of “this explains something,” alongside questions about what it means to see yourself in this light.

For many people, having both autistic and ADHD traits isn’t experienced as a checklist of symptoms, but as a way of being.

Often, the understanding comes later. Before that, there may have been years of self-doubt, masking, pushing through, or wondering why life feels so effortful.

Finally Recognising Yourself: Discovering Autism and ADHD

For many people, learning about AuDHD later in life can feel like finally recognising yourself, rather than discovering something new. AuDHD is not a formal diagnostic category. Instead, it is a term many people use to describe what it feels like to live at the intersection of autistic and ADHD ways of processing the world.

Research increasingly acknowledges that these neurotypes frequently co-occur, and that their interaction creates a distinct lived experience (Russell et al., 2014; Asherson et al., 2016). This recognition is often felt in the body and emotions as much as in thought, with a sense of relief, resonance, or quiet grief as past experiences of overwhelm, inconsistency, or feeling ‘out of sync’ begin to make sense.

It may show up as an awareness of different needs living side by side, such as wanting structure while also resisting routine, or moving between deep absorption and mental restlessness, experiences increasingly recognised as part of the interaction between autistic and ADHD traits (Cooper et al., 2021).

An internal push and pull

This ‘push and pull’ experience can show up in a person as a mix of deep focus and restlessness, a strong need for structure alongside a drive for novelty, or heightened sensitivity combined with a fast-moving, curious mind. You may be capable of intense focus when something truly matters to you, yet find it incredibly hard to start or sustain tasks that feel boring or externally driven.

For lots of people living with AuDHD, this experience cannot be neatly separated into ‘autism traits’ or ‘ADHD traits.’ Instead, the two tend to intertwine, sometimes amplifying one another and sometimes pulling in different directions. This internal contradiction can be confusing, especially when others misunderstand or misread it.

Rather than a contradiction, many describe this as a complex but coherent way of being in the world. A person might long for predictability and safety, while also feeling restless or trapped when life becomes too repetitive.

You might recognise yourself in experiences such as:

  • Thinking quickly and deeply, with ideas branching off in many directions
  • Feeling strongly affected by noise, textures, light or emotional atmospheres
  • Wanting connection and authenticity, but finding social interaction draining
  • Oscillating between clarity and overwhelm, motivation and shutdown

These are expressions of a nervous system that is highly responsive, sensitive, and alert, often in a world that values speed, efficiency, and conformity over depth and nuance.

What AuDHD Can Feel Like From the Inside

From the outside, many AuDHD adults appear capable. You may have learned to be competent at work, in relationships, or in professional roles, while paying the price behind the scenes.

Internally, the experience can feel busy, intense, and tiring. You might feel as though your mind never fully switches off.

Thoughts arrive quickly, often accompanied by strong emotional reactions. You may struggle to prioritise, but because everything feels important or emotionally charged.

A person might:

  • Notice details and patterns others miss, while struggling with administrative tasks
  • Feel deeply empathetic, yet unsure how to express needs in the moment
  • Experience bursts of creativity followed by exhaustion or disengagement
  • Feel confident in familiar, meaningful contexts and lost in others

Research suggests that when autism and ADHD co-exist, traits can mask or intensify one another, which often leads to late recognition or misinterpretation by professionals (Asherson et al., 2016). Many people are told they are “coping well” even when they are barely holding things together.

Burnout and The Emotional Cost of Being Misunderstood

Repeated experiences of being misunderstood can leave a mark. Past moments of not being seen or understood can shape how we come to view ourselves. You may have begun to see yourself less kindly, perhaps as inconsistent, insecure, or “too sensitive.”

In response, you might have learned to push past your own needs, setting aside sensory discomfort, emotional fatigue, or mental overload to cope with expectations.

For many people with AuDHD, burnout does not arrive suddenly. It develops gradually, through years of compensating and adapting in challenging environments that were not designed for them (Kerns et al., 2015). Burnout may show up as:

  • Chronic fatigue or loss of motivation
  • Heightened anxiety or emotional reactivity
  • Withdrawal from work or relationships
  • A sense of disconnection from yourself

Burnout often emerges after long periods of having to adapt to environments that did not fit your sensory needs or ways of processing the world, an understanding increasingly reflected in neurodiversity-affirming frameworks (Silberman, 2015).

Identity, and the Question of Belonging

Many neurodivergent people become skilled at masking and adjusting behaviour, tone, or emotional expression to fit into everyday demands, social and professional settings.

While masking can be protective in the short term, it often comes at a high cost to well-being and identity. You might find yourself wondering:

Who am I when I’m not adapting or pleasing others?

What do I need or like?

Which part is authentically me, and which are survival strategies?

Research suggests that prolonged masking is associated with increased anxiety, depression, and identity confusion, particularly for autistic adults (Cooper et al., 2018; Sinclair, 2010).

For many people, discovering their AuDHD traits brings relief and clarity. Alongside this, feelings of grief or mixed emotions can emerge about past efforts to fit in, or about support that was missing. Whatever comes up for you is understandable and valid.

Living your life authentically

Everyone has their own mix of strengths, sensitivities, and limits. For autistic folks and people with ADHD and AuDHD, navigating a world that is largely shaped around neurotypical expectations can be demanding, often in ways that aren’t immediately visible.

In therapy and research alike, there is growing recognition that approaches focused on “fixing” neurodivergent traits are limiting.

Neurodiversity-affirming therapy places greater emphasis on lived experience, context, and individual ways of functioning, rather than trying to suppress traits. This approach tends to support wellbeing and more meaningful therapeutic work (Lerner et al., 2023).

Many people with AuDHD experience the world with particular depth. You might ask searching questions, feel strongly moved by meaning or authenticity, think in creative and problem-solving ways, or notice emotional undercurrents that others pass over.

When enough safety is present, this allows for deep and meaningful connections, though it can also be tiring or hard to sustain.

From this perspective, wellbeing is about building a life that feels more supportive, less demanding and more authentic.

The Gift of Therapy

If you are considering therapy, you may be wondering whether this is a space where you can bring depth, the tiredness, and the hope.

Neurodiversity-affirming therapy is not about fixing or optimising yourself. Instead, it can offer a relational space. Without minimising or rushed toward solutions, it offers space where what matters to you is taken seriously. It can be a place to slow down, reflect, and make sense of your experience in a way that feels respectful and human.

For people with AuDHD, therapy can offer a space to;

  • prioritise understanding
  • make room for complexity and ambivalence
  • respect pacing, autonomy, and sensory needs
  • paying attention to practical concerns
  • exploring identity, meaning, and relationships

Therapy can be a gift. For many, the most healing experience isn’t strategies, but being met consistently, thoughtfully, and human to human in a space where your experiences are seen and accepted, allowing a gentler understanding of yourself to emerge.

If this is something you’d like to explore, you are very welcome to get in touch.

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Katrin Kemmerzehl
I am a qualified psychotherapeutic counsellor in Newcastle upon Tyne.
Please get in touch if you’re interested in arranging a consultation.

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